My Stories

So, yesterday I was at this youth program. There were about 15 people, all from different background with their own ideas about things. At one point, they were asked "What kind of person are you known for?" Everyone had interesting answers but two girls' answer made me think and write this blog. One of them said her parents call her 'the son of the family'. When asked what she meant, she said it's because she's not emotional like other women and does things that guys usually do. Then another girl spoke and she said that she is a proud daughter of her family. She was so confident saying that anything a son can do, she can do too. I totally felt that. Later, I told her I felt the same way and it turns out she also has a sister, just like me and they both believe they can achieve anything. Whenever I talk about stuff like this, some people get worked up saying women do not have the physical strength of men. And I completely agree on this, i never think we are...

There is a specific kind of peace that comes with building the life exactly where you are born. I love my life here in Nepal. I have the kind of freedom people travel oceans to find, a support system and a decent career that allows me to enjoy my life. For the longest time, abroad has always been a destination for travel and not a place for settling for me. But lately, this peace has somehow been interrupted. The feeling came back stronger when I heard one of my closest friends leaving. Then another one is also planning on it. Then suddenly, FOMO takes on a different shape. Not because I feel like I am missing out on a life abroad but missing out on the future of my social circle. I tell myself that I will make new friends but can I find someone as close as them? The exhaustion of starting from the bottom sounds very uncomfortable. I often hear about the freedom of living abroad. And sure, there may be liberation living by yourself but I feel like I already have that here. But my heart...